July 22, 1760 I had this day an interview with Mr Smith of Wainsgate. I opened to him the state of my mind. The advice he gave me was to apply with diligence to the study of the Scriptures, to attend to my secular employment as far as my health would permit and to wait till the Lord by his providence should show me more clearly what he would have me do. I told him it was my desire to take his advice in order that I might be useful in the work of the ministry but I found such a mixture of improper feelings of mind and particularly of pride in the thoughts of it that I was afraid it could not be of God; he, however, still advised me to take that course. O Lord, thou knowest my weakness, the pride of my heart and my utter inability for so awful a work.
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